Something Old~Something New
Well, finally I have my own blog....I have been wanting to have one for a while but haven't had the time to sit down and start typing~
IT IS TIME~ and there is no time like the present~ so here I sit....trying to decided how I am going to share all the musings in my head without rambling on and on!
Time has a way of blinding us to the things that are right in front of us. I thought for so long that God created me to be a mom, wife and all the things that come with that...I never thought I could be what I am becoming. I thought I was really grown up and mature and responsible and all that then~ wham ~ I act like a highschool girl all over again. I didn't rise above the hormonal cat fight....I got mad....really mad....then sad....then introspective.You know what I mean...
You do the right thing all the time~don't rock the boat, say the right thing, keep your mouth shut for fear of saying something wrong! I did that for sooooo long. Then one day~ I let it slip~ and what happens, just my luck, it came back to bite me~ and it hurt! (to protect the not so innocent I am witholding names....LOL) She took me at my word....that I wouldn't do something~something big~ but I did it anyway. Not thinking first, just doing! I let my gaurd down for just a moment, and there it was....a gift....a talent even, like it had been hiding in a locked closet. A gift of creating~not like giving birth, but creating with my mind and hands and absolutely LOVING IT in a way I have NEVER loved anything before! Well, to be truthful I love my sweet redheaded honey and my sweet little boys more~but I am now creating something for MYSELF and my babies and my sweet dear hubby benefit all the way around. So~she hates me~a long time friend~a sister even! I hurt her~maybe even broke her heart~ I will never know. She won't speak to me! That is in the past. I have moved on....and that brings me to the SOMETHING NEW!
I prayed, I hurt and I suffered over the wrong I had done. I appolgized, then the cloud lifted and standing there were a crowd of people...cheering for me. My Gary~who loves me more than he lets on sometimes, my three sweet babies~Raury, Connor and Gable...they make me want to smile all the time. Amy~ a sweet, loving, honest caring friend who has been there from the start and NEVER left~even when I did! Shannon and Dwayne~if I haven't said it in a long time~ we love that you still invite us and call us even though we don't always call back. We love spending time with you~and Raury really digs Britton. My mom and Dad~the support and love have always been there....and to the Something New~ Gwen~ my chic and shabby twin sister...you ROCK!!!!! I love chatting it up, laughing and becoming good friends. I hope we are friends FOREVER! Suzanne~ Darlin' you have encouraged me though this whole thing and I love you for it!
For those of you who know what I am talking about~ look for the something news in Life! They can make even the most bittersweet moments bloom like a BIG FAT ROSE!!!!! LOL!
Well, finally I have my own blog....I have been wanting to have one for a while but haven't had the time to sit down and start typing~
IT IS TIME~ and there is no time like the present~ so here I sit....trying to decided how I am going to share all the musings in my head without rambling on and on!
Time has a way of blinding us to the things that are right in front of us. I thought for so long that God created me to be a mom, wife and all the things that come with that...I never thought I could be what I am becoming. I thought I was really grown up and mature and responsible and all that then~ wham ~ I act like a highschool girl all over again. I didn't rise above the hormonal cat fight....I got mad....really mad....then sad....then introspective.You know what I mean...
You do the right thing all the time~don't rock the boat, say the right thing, keep your mouth shut for fear of saying something wrong! I did that for sooooo long. Then one day~ I let it slip~ and what happens, just my luck, it came back to bite me~ and it hurt! (to protect the not so innocent I am witholding names....LOL) She took me at my word....that I wouldn't do something~something big~ but I did it anyway. Not thinking first, just doing! I let my gaurd down for just a moment, and there it was....a gift....a talent even, like it had been hiding in a locked closet. A gift of creating~not like giving birth, but creating with my mind and hands and absolutely LOVING IT in a way I have NEVER loved anything before! Well, to be truthful I love my sweet redheaded honey and my sweet little boys more~but I am now creating something for MYSELF and my babies and my sweet dear hubby benefit all the way around. So~she hates me~a long time friend~a sister even! I hurt her~maybe even broke her heart~ I will never know. She won't speak to me! That is in the past. I have moved on....and that brings me to the SOMETHING NEW!
I prayed, I hurt and I suffered over the wrong I had done. I appolgized, then the cloud lifted and standing there were a crowd of people...cheering for me. My Gary~who loves me more than he lets on sometimes, my three sweet babies~Raury, Connor and Gable...they make me want to smile all the time. Amy~ a sweet, loving, honest caring friend who has been there from the start and NEVER left~even when I did! Shannon and Dwayne~if I haven't said it in a long time~ we love that you still invite us and call us even though we don't always call back. We love spending time with you~and Raury really digs Britton. My mom and Dad~the support and love have always been there....and to the Something New~ Gwen~ my chic and shabby twin sister...you ROCK!!!!! I love chatting it up, laughing and becoming good friends. I hope we are friends FOREVER! Suzanne~ Darlin' you have encouraged me though this whole thing and I love you for it!
For those of you who know what I am talking about~ look for the something news in Life! They can make even the most bittersweet moments bloom like a BIG FAT ROSE!!!!! LOL!
posted by Aelyese Mauk | 9:50 PM
2 Comments:
Good for you! Im glad to see you on your way!! We definately dont need TOXIC friends! You are strong and a great shabby sweetie! You know so much, be proud that you are teaching me the ropes. You are an inspiration! Thanks for all of your help and support!!
Gwen
This is such an awesome idea! Happy Belated Birthday. Please know you are in my heart and prayers always, even though we are far away. He is our strength and our shield... I imagine you singing "I will survive" while painting and dancing around your shabby studio. YOU GO GIRL!
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